Well, that fantasy didn't last long. I got my heart shattered. Only it's not as bad as the first time. I guess hearts can't break if they're not whole.

It's not something I want to talk about, but it might make me feel better... Ok, here goes.

On Valentines Day (last Wednesday), this girl at school asked me to be her valentine and I said yes. Highlight of my week. And it was my first valentine (nobody ever asked me/gave me stuff before) so it seemed pretty special. Just thinking about that day made me happy...
She also said she'd come back and claim me when I was 21. I thought she was serious about me, and wanted to be with me cause people mean it when they want to be your valentine, right?

That's what I thought. So today I was sitting outside the Art block and she walked past me completely ignoring me and a couple of metres away was talking to this guy called James (really cool guy, excellent at playing the guitar ;D) and I saw him kiss her neck. And I could hear her laughing.

Well, that pretty much shattered my heart and infuriated me at the same time. I was shattered because I thought she actually wanted to be with me, and she was actually serious about being my Valentine and all, but she wasn't.

Somehow, I don't feel that shocked. Maybe because there was this little voice in my head saying negative things like she's not serious about this or it's a trap, don't fall for it! or something. *sigh*...

Well I can't think of anything else to type, so... later.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Bleeding heart, anyone?

So... I think I'm a little bit in love. No, I know. Or maybe it's more like, since love at first sight does not exist. I am in like.

I still hate Valentines Day, though.

... and yes, I'm aware it was yesterday. I forgot to post this yesterday.

Lyrics for today:

Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.
I can't say no to you.

*** random thougths @ 4:43 PM

Sunday, February 11, 2007

But it's the pelvic thrust that really drives you insane...

I know I haven't been updated for ages. -.- School's kept me busy, and I haven't exactly felt like blogging (this year has had a few hiccups) ...

I'm starting a new project. And this time it's not a comic! :D *the world rejoices* But seriously, I am. If you know me you'll know Rocky Horror Picture Show is one of my all time favourite movies XD. So, I decided to make a plush out of my fave characters Magenta and Columbia. I couldn't find any on the net, or any that were actually plush and not a figurine so I decided to make my own.

Not sure how well it'll work. Luckily, I have a home ec project coming up that requires sewing so I figured why not make one (or both) in Home Ec? Smart, no? I'll get to kill two birds with one stone XD. (not literally... >> << )

Anyways. In other news: Comicgen has been getting on my nerves lately. Stupid SmartFTP won't let me upload ANYTHING at all. And I'm tried via other FTP's and it's not working...

So I figure I'll just put it on here (I might change my mind later tho) and maybe on my devArt account.

Well, that's all for now.

*** random thougths @ 3:12 PM