Well, that fantasy didn't last long. I got my heart shattered. Only it's not as bad as the first time. I guess hearts can't break if they're not whole.

It's not something I want to talk about, but it might make me feel better... Ok, here goes.

On Valentines Day (last Wednesday), this girl at school asked me to be her valentine and I said yes. Highlight of my week. And it was my first valentine (nobody ever asked me/gave me stuff before) so it seemed pretty special. Just thinking about that day made me happy...
She also said she'd come back and claim me when I was 21. I thought she was serious about me, and wanted to be with me cause people mean it when they want to be your valentine, right?

That's what I thought. So today I was sitting outside the Art block and she walked past me completely ignoring me and a couple of metres away was talking to this guy called James (really cool guy, excellent at playing the guitar ;D) and I saw him kiss her neck. And I could hear her laughing.

Well, that pretty much shattered my heart and infuriated me at the same time. I was shattered because I thought she actually wanted to be with me, and she was actually serious about being my Valentine and all, but she wasn't.

Somehow, I don't feel that shocked. Maybe because there was this little voice in my head saying negative things like she's not serious about this or it's a trap, don't fall for it! or something. *sigh*...

Well I can't think of anything else to type, so... later.